Casandra J. Orgill

Saturday, January 31, 2015

I need more film.


I'm in need of some fresh air.
Some brick walls, some city people, and some new Polaroids because these old ones are getting stale.

I'm in need of something new 
Because you're getting stale too.
The car rides, the mountain adventures, and the love letters.
Stale.
And I still think it's ironic how you started to drink cold medicine just because you were cold not because you were sick.

I'm still trying to remember the first photo we took together, I think it was somewhere between pine trees and an innocent romance.
My SD card is still full those of memories that send shivers down my spine.
in a good way.
in a bad way.
in an old way.

I need a new way.
this world moves far too fast to be living in the past.


I want to get in my car right now and drive somewhere new, take a new photograph, and hang it up on my wall.
but I'm stuck at work biting my lip,
in hope that a little bit of blood might give me some perspective.

I want to step out of high school halls and into great nothingness. 
But, all these memories of you are keeping my shoelaces tied together.

I tried to send you a postcard so I could have an excuse as to why you won't talk to me anymore.
but I still remember why.
god, I need some new memories.

So for the love of new perspectives,
please get out of my head.
Because I don't want to become stale too.

















Tuesday, January 6, 2015

Looking For Alaska

I could easily read this book 10 times.
Then 10 times more.

"Y'all smoke to enjoy it. I smoke to die."
Smoke
Smoke 
Smoke 
the beauty of smoke is only caught in a glimpse of death. 
waiting for a train that will never come, always filled with regret.
Smoke
Smoke 
Smoke
The closest thing to ever touch such beautiful and addicted lips.
There is something about smoke.
Release 
Release
Release


Tragic. Beautiful. inspiring.
Looking For Alaska - John Greene