Lastly

I know it's a little late. 

But I think lately, I decided that's how I like things. 

I never thought my last words would be said on May 25th at 12:14pm

and I never considered May 28th to be a death date. 

To me, high school was a stepping stone.

A necessary torture to get the the next step in life. 

But there are some things that changed that assumption.

Like good music, sad hallways, regretful kissing, slow clocks, lost friendships, breathing, people who smile, art, open hearts, notes, rain on window pains, poetry, and Paris.

The list goes on

But I think high school was made to be a memory. 

I just want to say thank you for being a part of my new found memories.

Thank you for encouraging me to be an artist.

Thank you for making me laugh and making me cry. 

Thank you for lending me your eyes and your ears, I wish I could keep them a little longer. 

Thank you for putting pen to paper, never stop. 

Thank you.

I wish we could hold hands and sing about nostalgia and past lovers for a little longer,

But we are all a little too big for that now and we forgot how to hold hands 2 weeks ago. 

2 weeks ago it wasn't raining. 

2 weeks ago graduation wasn't even close enough to grab. 

2 weeks ago...

4 days 

Take a leap into the great perhaps.

Some things that were left unsaid:

-me and mckay aren't going to date or get married anytime soon, I'm sorry

-Madeline made me cry the day she read about Terik

-I've had a kinda crush on issac since the beginning of senior year, he is dating Natalie now and that is Also cool

-my art isn't even that good

-I want to be Sam Frazier when I grow up

-I actually will really miss this class and all the strings attached to it.

-I'm tired 

"It was like hearing every goodbye ever said to me - said all at once"

here's to you, natty beth

Hey Natty.
Quick reminder that you are a lovely lovely person.
Oh, and you write incredibly amazing things.

I listened to your music the whole time I "analyzed" your blog and let me just say that you have incredible music taste.
(fav song: flood pt. 2 - The Acorn )
(also: Amsterdam - gregory alan isokov )

side note: you are amazing at playing music as well.

You are so real. and your words taste like honey.
evertime I read one of your posts, my heart skips 5 beats.
You are amazing.

side note: I really like all the cool tabs on your blog. there is so much there. all the photos.

here are my favorite quotes. ( I spent way too long linking all these )

-my smile was made with colors like jumper cables and car batteries. 
-and sick became the reason you didn't go to church.
-but dad called and I pretended that I didn't hear him.
-and my exhale sounds like the words "I'm done"
-I'll pray for your heartache and your heartbreak and your sorrow 7 years in advance
-I remember when I was young my mom told me that freckles on my nose were angel kisses.
-I've got heartburn. I've got heartburn because of you.
-It rains a lot at this train station. But that's how death likes it.
-I'm afraid of running out of ink and the cold side of the bed.

Side Note: I feel like your posts always start of so strong. and that is so hard to do. you always have something really amazing at the beginning of your posts. It's beautiful and unique. wishing I could do that.

Your blog is a solid 9.8/10
the only thing I wish there was is a variety in writing styles, experiment with how you write a little more. You could do an amazing job with that I know it.

You write things that break me into pieces like this.
And things that give me chills everytime like this.
And you write things that make me want to be your best friend like this.
And things that make me feel love like this
And you write things that have me reading it 20 times over again like this.
And old posts that still sound heavenly like this.

Natty, Overall you have an amazing blog. you are so so very talented. never forget that. and NEVER ever stop writing. ever. you are incredible and you have so so much passion. I have never felt anything more. your writing/blog is just pure bliss. You are gifted and you have so much inside of you. you are so much.

side note: I have seen your journal and that is also amazing. You are an amazing human being.

Your blog makes me feel like This song. and this song.
and it looks like this.



Love, Eleanor
Love, E. D.
Love, Eleanor D.
Love Always, Eleanor
Eleanor d.
[eleanor douglas]
eleanor
- Eleanor d
love, eleanor douglas
sincerely, your hearts
Love, Natty Beth
Love, Always, Eleanor
Love always, Natty Beth Taylor
Love, Forever, Eleanor Douglas
Love always, Natty B.
love always, your sister
Love, Natty B.