Casandra J. Orgill

Friday, October 17, 2014

16. 17. 18

16.
sixteen was like bad Fridays and good Mondays.
Like rooftops and night skies.
Like an upside down spiral stair case.
sixteen was like playing a never ending game of checkers and always
losing.
losing.
losing.
Like first dates and first kisses.
Like fireworks in the middle of July.
Like long drives and short sentences.
sixteen was like trying to paint with a shaking hand.
Like looking for something in the wrong place.
Like hugging darkness.
sixteen was like living in fast forward
sixteen is gone.
 
 
 

 
 
 

17.
seventeen is like you, me, and the moon light
Like swimming through an ocean of priorities.
    Like getting no sleep and finding new places.
Like giving up.
again.
and again.
seventeen is like becoming someone other than yourself.
Like being stuck in that annoying state of confusion.
seventeen is like listening to Christmas music in august.
Like feeling free.
Like getting cold feet.
seventeen is like a little more imagination and a little less determination.
Like a scar of reality.
seventeen is like waiting for eighteen.
 
 
 
18.
eighteen will be like making life decisions before you know who you are.
Like a new religion waiting to be heard.
hear me.
eighteen will be like feeling limitless.
Like having nothing holding you back.
Like killing.
eighteen will be like standing with your feet in a river and your head in the clouds.
eighteen will be like forgetting seventeen.
Like trying to find a void to fill your empty heart
Like trying to find coins to fill your empty pockets.
eighteen will be like realizing you aren't that girl anymore.
Like realizing you have to grow up, but refusing.
eighteen will be like holding on.
 
But age is just a number.
 
 


9 comments:

  1. I'm very obsessed with this.

    "Seventeen is like a little more imagination and a little less determination."

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  2. "sixteen was like trying to paint with a shaking hand." YES #stolen

    ahhhh because you're just so unsure at 16.

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  3. "Like a new religion waiting to be heard. Hear me" oh heavens I love this whole thing.

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  4. "sixteen was like bad Fridays and good Mondays." Love it. #Stolen

    Also I just spent the last 20 minutes playing with the little star things.

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  5. THIS JUST SUMMED UP ALL OF THE PROBLEMS AND NOSTALGIA IN MY MIND.

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  6. "eighteen will be like standing with your feet in a river and your head in the clouds." That's truly a great line.

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  7. randomly blog stalking you because.
    love your stuff

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