What's the fun in doing what you're told?

I have always wanted to sneak out my window in the middle of the night, but my window is on the second story and I was told that jumping out the window will get you killed,

but what is the fun in that?

When that girl tells you your shoes are way to main stream, wear them anyways.

Sing in the car because everybody else tells you that you're off tune.

Run away.

Don't ever do what you're told.

Don't study, don't go to the football game, and don't ask that boy you hate to saides because they told you to.

where ever you go today, go there for you. 

Not because you were told to. 

You have to start doing things for yourself. 

When they tell you to go fly a kite, fly to the moon instead.

don't wear vogue, don't take any criticism, and don't go to church because they told you to.

And always play your favourite songs on repeat, even when they tell you that you have the worst taste in music.

Never turn down your music.

when we do what we are told, we become robots and robots never die young.

Next time you hear a set of rules, don't obey them. 

Don't go to bed on time because your parents told you to

Always kiss on the first date because they tell you not to

And never do what you're told to. 

Where I got my bricks (ft. don't be another brick)

Please don't be another brick in my wall.

I got a brick from my dads' hard heart and another from my grandmothers wind chimes.

A brick from my failed calculus test and a brick from the flowers you never brought me.

Please don't be another brick in my wall.

I got a brick from the two scars on my left hand and a brick from waiting in line for good concerts.

A brick from your pine scented car and a another brick from my car with the squeaky wheel.

Please don't be another brick in my wall.



I got a brick from the breakfast club and one more from st. elmos fire.

A brick from say anything and another from pretty in pink.

I got a brick from all those family parties and all those unfinished art pieces.

I have bricks from rainy days and bricks from sunny days.

And I have thousands of bricks from endless thunder storms.

Please don't be another brick in my wall.



I got a brick from that bad hair die and those jeans I used to wear ever day.

Please don't be another brick in my wall

I got a brick from a musician and a brick from a poet.

I got a brick from a gypsy and a brick from an adventurer.

Please don't be another brick in my wall.

I have bricks from empty hearts and empty hands.

bricks from a mind full of thoughts and lips full of questions.

Please don't be another brick in my wall.







I have a thousand up turned bricks in my wall and I just hope you aren't one of them.

Don't be just another brick. 





I know why

It's been raining since five in the morning and baby I think I know why.

I think I know why the sun rises in the morning and why the moon only shows at night.

And I think I know why the rain makes me feel infinite.

I want to write it all on the back of a postcard and address it to you because

This world has kept me waiting for far too long, but baby I think I know why.

I have been pacing the kitchen floors and the bath water is over flowing but I think I know why.

I think I know why I still miss you and why we never kissed

And I think I know why words are so powerful and why we love Paris.

And If you want to know why too, take a look outside on a half rainy day.

because I think I know why we can no longer let the world control our thoughts.

At least Not on rain filled days like these.

I don't want to stay a ghost in the rain,

So every time the sky starts to cry, that's when I will know why.

We will all know why.

I believed in love at second sight

This is not a love story.

until I met you, I believed that love was real.

That two halves could make a whole.

my mind was a closed toothpaste factory,

But You turned it into something beautifully unspoken.

You showed me how to think, how to live, how to...love

We destroyed the world with our hand gun,

and our unknown milky disorders combined into one unstoppable love.

Some lovers kiss under the stars

but we explored them.

every touch was a brand new constellation

and we hung onto every star like chandeliers.

we swung across the universe with our hands grasped tightly,

Together we made a galaxy of our own

I started to believe it was love at second sight.

Most people hide their pain in their beauty

but we hid our beauty in our pain

Until I met you, my heart was oblivious to fear.

You showed me what a heartbreak was.

now I cry every time that song plays in my car, especially on rainy Tuesdays

That song that would take us into another dimension full of words without pain.

when that song played, We never thought about tomorrow because our words were the only tomorrow we cared about.

I can't watch the phantom of the opera without turning into a waterfall.

rushing downward, heavily into the past,

and you're the only one who could see through the rushing waters.

Our history isn't as beautiful as I thought it was

and your mystery was the only thing that got to me.

Until I met you, I thought love would save me

but You showed me what a heart ache was.

you never told me your middle name

but I soon figured out it was betrayal

and all I wrote were endings and I drafted the love stories.

My heart sunk a little deeper in my chest

and My teeth sunk a little deeper into a bittersweet end.

You were trying to fix my brokeness, but your eye lids were always closed.

I tried calling you last week,

but you changed your number

so thank you, for showing me that love isn't real

But I still have hope that one day, it will be.

Watching a Thousand Sunrises

This world scares me.
There are so many things to see and so many ways to live.
And I am afraid I won't ever be able to experience it all.
I am Afraid I Won't be able to taste all the sweetness of the world.
And that scares me the most.
Giving me an empty longing for an adventure.

I want to feel like an adult while strolling through the streets of Venice.
I want to fall in love with an iced coffee in hand under the Eiffel Tower.
I want to get lost in the streets of Manhattan.
I want to watch the sunrise from a thousand different horizons.

I don't just want to see the world, I want to feel it.

I want to dance in the rain under city lights.
I want to stare down never ending one way streets with a map tied to my wrists.
I want to kiss the edge of every visible ocean.
I want to live beyond these walls.

I want my mind to become a map of the world.

I never want to see the same place twice.
I want to leave my heart in a paper town and ghost towns.
I want to have 200 stories to tell about how beautiful every culture is.
I don't want to be trapped here.

I want to be adventurous.
oh darling Let's be adventurous.

Reminding myself to be human

When I sit shaking in my desk with the anxiety of a scared school girl. 
Slowly Clenching my fists so my fingertips won't feel my own heartbeat. 
That is when I know I am human.
When I look into the blurred sky and feel my somewhat forgotten childhood creeping into my memory. 
Trying to navigate its way into my reality.
That is when I know I am human.
when seeing a new face gives me hope for a better tomorrow.
And a better yesterday.
That is when I know I am human.
When I see the reflection of the sunset through the eyes of someone else. 
Not knowing when it began or when it will end.
That is when I know I am human.
When my heart starts to break from falling in love to quickly and I can feel the bruises developing.
slowly Bleeding internally.
That is when I know i am human.
When I look up at the stars.
only seeing what my mind allows me to.
That is when I know I am human.
When the thought of my own future makes me shiver.
And college scares me more than anything.
That is when I know I am human.
When my blood turns cold from thinking to much.
and my eyes turn dry from staring at the wall.
That is when I know I am human.
When I start to doubt that I am human.
That is when I know I am human.

I've gotta be human.

The Underground Vacancy

The soles of our feet have rubbed holes in our socks from running together through the moonlit streets.

we always have runs in our tights and scabs on our knees.

And we decided a long time ago that the 1900's will always be better than the 2000's.

You're wrong if you don't think we all belong on the streets of Paris as artists of our own world.

Our souls all bound together by our red stained cheeks and blood stained hearts.

And even though we all own cars, we take the train anyways.

We hang onto every last word like we will never taste death another day in our lives.

and every night as we lay under the night sky,

we kiss the edge of the galaxy.

screaming to the universe

Letting every star know our name.

Then when they day is through, we all watch the same sunrise,

we know we are all together united as one.

Our own secret society.

Screw the president because

We are the underground vacancy.



Lost Crayon box

Lost Crayon box: If found please call a forgotten childhood

My box of crayons was smashed the day it was given to me,

turned into a pile of colors that made no sense to my still childish mind.

4 years.

4 years of blocked out torment and torture.

The pile of crayons haunting my tiny conscious everyday.

I never knew what a box of crayons meant.

I decided daydreaming was better than the real thing.

I made my own box of crayons,

one the bullies would never find.

My mind became the exquisite colors in a forgotten crayon box.

I was forever banished to the adventures of my own mind.

I flew my own paper planes.

I was my own best friend.

I was a scared little child.

Scared and alone without a real box of crayons.

That's not how a childhood should be lived,

is it?

So here I am now.

The shadow of a scared child always looking up at me,

begging for a new box of crayons.